*Updated Yet Again*
A while back I recall stumbling across a humorous account written by Jeffrey Zaslow, which was originally published within the Wall Street Journal generally concerning overall privacy rights entitled
Oh no! My TiVo thinks I'm gay (Star-Telegram: Wednesday, December 04, 2002), which I found interesting even though at the time I never did read it in full.
Guess I will now though, especially since it seems like with what Zaslow described in his article about TiVo and certain experiences faced by some users of the service, as it concerns my personal blog and some of the Google Ads found upon them on occasion, it seems Google thinks I am gay as well.
Am not sure what is causing it really, but once and a while I have noticed an ad will be show up on the top of my blog page(s) for
Gay News on Sirus Radio, advertising
GBLT news coverage nationwide ....
It seems to have started once I blogged the
The Elephant in the Living Room: i.e., Depression blog post of mine yesterday (Saturday, July 24, 2004), though I think I have seen them pop up prior to the most recent time as well.
Of course now that I am posting this post, in which I make direct mention of the subject, one can expect more of the same.
Whenever I spot the ads on my blog page(s) I find it humorous and usually laugh, yet I also know how some people are prone to take what they read literally as being true and may make certain assumptions about my blog as well as me and my sexual identity or orientation.
However the nature, passion, depth, spirituality and topics of my writing and blogging can also lend to this confusion at times too.
In fact, for example, I will never forget showing up for an organizing gathering of activists in Washington, D.C. in advance of a protest we were there to march for human rights in psychiatry back in the summer of 1998.
When it came to my turn to participate in a skit that evening, it ended up I was the only male among five or more females performing and one of them very loudly said something along the lines of:
You're Morgan Brown? But I thought you were a woman, you cannot be Morgan. Not the Morgan I have read. There must be two different Morgan's?! You cannot be her! ...
She was taken aback and was very serious, as she clearly indicated in public, she had read some of my published works, especially my poetry (some of which I had read that evening as well during a reading of protest-poetry) and this person assumed it must have been written by a woman due to its style and also because of my first name.
Yet it this was *not* the only time this type of thing has happened to me, either that or people make some of the previously mentioned assumptions about my sexual orientation.
That said and, on an even more serious note, I am blogging about these matters in the most general of terms since I find this sort of thing somewhat amusing, though going into such subjects is not up for discussion as I am of the belief that such things are no one else's business unless someone directly and personally shares it with someone or is otherwise completely out in the open with it, regardless of what one's actual sexual identity and orientation may be.
So whatever your take is on such matters one way or another, just because Google may think I am gay or my style of writing leaves one questioning for some reason of a reader's own, does not make it so and, more to the point, does not then make whether I am or not gay anyone else's business.
Am only stating this to help illustrate that just because someone may blog something about any given subject whatsoever or otherwise using various styles of expression outside of what may be considered certain
norms, no matter what it is or how personal it may be, it does not then mean a reader should jump to certain conclusions based on it and take it for granted they know certain things about the individual behind the blog. If they do, then they would all too often be completely incorrect in their assumptions and conclusions.
Not that it should matter really. However, reality and people being as they are (i.e., human), it comes up all too often and people form incorrect assumptions and then sometimes respond accordingly (or, in some cases, they do not respond [i.e., they may be rude, cold and indifferent, starkly so; appearing to be silent on the subject, yet still managing to be heard loudly on it, strongly driving the point home all the same without seeming to do so]) based upon what they have assumed as well as the belief system they hold about a given matter, whatever issue at hand that may end up being in a particular situation or circumstance.
The thing the goes on within my mind about these matters, is the blogosphere has quickly mirrored and thusly re-enforcing what happens within the real world in many circumstances. When it has a positive impact on matters of social justice and equal rights, I am very pleased. Of course when it has a negating effect, I am not.
Yet, as always, all we can do in these cases is meet freedom of speech with more freedom of speech in an effort to help educate or otherwise counter what we may believe needs changing.
Have rambled on enough for now, in what was only intended as a brief blog post limited to the how I found some of the Google ads to be humorous, especially since I remembered Zaslow's Wall Street article regarding overall consumer privacy rights (which seemed to be lost on lots of people by the way) and only meant to blog about that a little.
So now I have empty a bunch of loose and wandering thoughts spilled out here, not all as serious as they may appear, just to share them in a general fashion and not much further for the time being, unless I should choose to in another blog post some day.
This is of course my blog and this is the purpose it serves: i.e., personal expression as I see fit in the form of an online journal of some of my thoughts, observations and experiences that would otherwise be either left on the pages of a written journal if I were to keep one or left unstated unless I were to find someone who may be interested in listening to me in person, which hardly is ever the case.
While it is my hope that some of the readers of this blog of mine may get to know me better or may find something I blog about informative and of interest to them, this blog is more my attempt at getting to know myself and unlocking some of what has up to now been hidden within the depths of my inner most being.
In fact this is one of the reasons I am so slow and cautious about doing so, based on past experiences when my words and, myself as a result, have been gravely misunderstood and them misrepresented by others on a whole slew of different matters having nothing to do with the topic used to acquire one's attention in an attempt by me to begin generally addressing matters along this line of thought, yet having to do with other subjects I typically concern myself with -- especially when it concerns passing judgment on certain peers of mine, whether they be bloggers who are currently or formerly homeless or those who may be psychiatrically labeled or both no matter what a reader's own personal background or experience may be in these regards. It is something I may eventually be compelled to confront, as I feel very strongly about it and yet have been quiet to date about these things until now anyway.
Depending on energy, frame of mind, time and online access, additional blog posts can hopefully be expected from me along these lines sometime in the future, most likely delving deeper into what I am only now vaguely skimming the surface with.
As far as the ads in question on my blog pages or of what anyone may think of them or even of my style of writing or of me for that matter, not only do I not have any control over them, but I truly do not give a damn either. But of course that is usually obvious enough and goes without saying, isn't it?!
My apologies for being so indirect at this stage about what is truly at the root of this blog post, but it is the best I can do right now, given my deep feelings about some the people and matters I care most about.
All of which leads to me to mention a great blogger's disclaimer, which I come across via
Bacon, Cheese and Oatcakes (whose blog I found via the blogroll on Francesca Gray's blog,
Pushing an Elephant up the Stairs) and I highly recommend all blog reader's read the disclaimer and keep it in mind as well as is definitely a link blogger's themselves may want to consider posting somewhere permanent within their blog template so the linkage is accessible on their blog pages:
Read Me.
*Please note* that the Web address to use for it however is:
http://www.namaii.com/readme, as the other address listed on the page is defunct: i.e., non-functioning.
End of rant, just for the moment though.
Thank you for reading.
*Update*
By the way, not all that far off-topic to the actual thoughts and concerns about certain overly judgmental, highly critical and utterly negative attitudes and assumptions certain people hold as well as having publicly stated regarding matters they prove beyond doubt to be absolutely clueless and ignorant about, which are very much like those that were the initial inspiration behind what has thus far been indirectly expressed via this post of mine: There is an active exchange of discussion going on over at Joe Town Rock concerning The Homeless Guy blog as well as its blogger, Kevin Barbieux,
here.
Just came across mention of it via:
The Homeless Guy.
If possible, I may join in on the discussion on that board tomorrow, once I get online again. It is way too late and I do not have the online access I will need to do so anyway.
Blog on Kevin.
It is way late and time for me to go to where I am couch surfing tonight to attempt to catch a few hours of sleep. If anyone wonders where my online is currently coming from, a friend of mine has graciously allowed me use of their online access on an as needed basis over the weekend.
During the daytime though, I was using yet another online computer elsewhere on a similar arrangement, as there are those who both definitely understand, deeply care and know how to show it when it matters most -- just like those who have been allowing me to stay with them at times.
This gives a person hope enough to continue on during some rather long and particularly difficult moments, er, days, months ... (
Of course I could not do it without them and their generous support and kindnesses. You know who you are. Thank you!)
*Note*: Made several edits and additions for informational purposes as well as for clarification and readability; made some additional edits, including correcting some of the wording as well as an item of information within the second paragraph: last updated on Monday, July 26, 2004 at 12:25 PM [EDT].